Thursday, 13 September 2007
hello everyone!
there's many things to blog about, since i havent blogged for like ages.
so here goes!
first, the sad things.
why did you have to do that, again? why?! you were so nice. you explained to me! you consoled me, you told me everything was okay, you told me i was thinking too much! and then you really made me trust you, once more! you made me forget everything! you made me feel okay! you made me try.
so do you think im a fool? am i a fool in your eyes? do you think you can just play like that? am i a puppet that you feel like using? am i? why!
you just felt, so cold. moodswings? or are you just thinking that i poke in too much? you told me it was okay. you told me.. you told me it wasn't anything serious..
then suddenly you're just so cold! and you just answered everything, so crudely, so cold. i was shocked. i was you know? how do you think i feel? how do you think you will feel like that?
so that was not serious. let's go on to how you treated me.
i asked you, let's go. you told me, wait. then i waited. and you walked off with your friends. how do you think i felt when i stared at all your backs? you didnt bother, at all. luckily she was there for me. she waited and walked with me behind. she was kind, not like you.
forget that for now.
i helped you put back your stuff. i thought it was okay, you were waiting for me. then i turned around, feeling okay. and i saw that there was no one there. you were walking out of the door, with your friends again. i told myself that you just forgot in a hurry, maybe you thought i was outside already. but i saw that my things were still all over. was it possible that you didnt know that was my things? was it possible?
i felt lousy then. i felt cheated.
then you asked me if i wanted to follow you. i said no. i wanted to go away. i knew i was interfering..
the rest of the day, everything i said, you said the opposite.
you seemed to want to tell me, mind your own business. you know you're so interfering in my affairs? you're a stupid pain in the neck. now i tell you, i understand.
happy now? fine. it's over.
another person changed in the blink of an eye.
i felt lousy. so i left.
maybe you felt that luckily i left. you could talk to your new friends in peace.
you didnt bother to stop me. or bring me back.
since you didnt bother, why should i?
these things made me feel worse now.
i'll maybe blog another time. now i need to study.
sorry! byebye pple. (: i cant only afford to smile at nice people.
