70th post.

oh mann. i lost my handphone.
and now i have to use the old samsung one.
it's my auntie's. i used it before, then i spoiled mine. at that time we had the same model.
so mine spoiled but her's was still around. and now coincidentally, i lost my new one, and have to use this old model again!
both of our phones were pearl coloured. but since hers is so old, it's turned yellow! D:
and there's so many scratched on them!

damn. i don't have any right to complain. i just hope i will get a new one real soon.
at least the present one is not as bad as those type of really old nokia phones that have a digital face --- no colour! D:

okay goodbye. (:

it's gone.
why? i'm not sure.
who's that evil-doer who stole/pick-pocketed my handphone?

i really miss how it looks.
and how i used to put it at the side of my bed.
and how the keypads felt nice under your fingertips,
and how the last message i ever typed on the keypad was about best dankins home phones.
and how i pressed the sent button.
and how i left it on the table.
and how i was so engrossed with the stuff there, i forgot all about it.
and how it's..... gone.

i'm sorry.
i will miss you a lot.
maybe i've developed a bond or attachment with it in that 6 months.
but i really will miss you, and i wish the evil person would just return you to me.
i will miss your keypad and your model.
farewell. D':

* i'm not being drama-mama okay. i really miss my handphone. ):

i don't like this feeling.
i don't like what i'm seeing.
i don't like the bitter taste spreading at the tip of my tongue.
i don't like the feeling of failure.

but what right do i have to say all this?
who am i to say this?
sometimes i feel that i don't even deserve to be in a good school like Cedar.
why did i slack? why is it that this year it turned out so horrible?

today we received our report books.
and i didn't like what i saw.
really. 92nd place in the level?
maybe some people will think that it's okay already.
at first i thought like that too.
but never did i know that so many people will get better results than me.
the irony is that i guess i'm the only one from my primary school that got such horrific results.
why is it that the word compare always goes around during the releasing of results?
well, it's the same.
when you get good grade, you compare..
compare so much that maybe you just didn't care about how others felt.
they don't show it, but i bet in their hearts, they're still hurt.
i was once like that too. comparing seemed like the best thing.
becos i never felt the bitter feeling of failure before.
maybe this is how it feels to be hurt like this.
i finally understand..

now i may seem like a spoilt brat, who always wants everything to be smooth and going her way.
but i'm not. i'm just feeling disappointed, in myself.

*sigh*
actually i don't wanna think about it anymore.
i just feel bitter and sour.
but nevermind. goodbye! :D

chicken.
oh that stupid chicken.
oh that stupid horrible chicken.
just can't stand.. IT.
cow.
oh that unreasonable cow.

why is chicken so unreasonable.
why is cow so unreasonable.

they just have to spoil my day.
one so unreasonable, one so irritating.
can they just shut their mouth for a minute? no, just a second?!
keep on pushing all the blame on me,
and though you say that you don't care, i know you care so much about your silly image.
don't try to pretend and put on a fake face.
unreasonable and irritating!
typing also say i typing so hard to irritate HER.

PLEASE LAHHHHHHHHH.
hello? i don't have that amount of time to go and entertain you or irritate you okay.
you think you're a big shot arh? i must purposely go and irritate you huh.
even if i have the spare time also don't want to waste on YOU lah, i can jolly well go and do other more meaningful stuff please.

phew. this has got me pissed. ):

hellohello!
tomorrow there's school. i dreaddddd it. but who doesn't? (:
nevermind. i'm eating dinner now. WANTON MEE!
yay.yay.yay. :D

4 more days to.. HOLIDAYS!!!
and all the way until next year!
no more tests, no more exams, no more school, no more teachers, WHOOHOO! :D:D:D

hey people!

look look. i changed skin! is it like, finally? haha. this skin is NOT emo okayy. it says: hug an EMO now. but it's not like all dark and emo, and well.. yah.

today i had guides. but guides was weird.
started at like 3.30, then we had roll call, patrol corner and.. weirdly, taps!
taps so early? the seniors said that the guiders told them sec 1s had something on at 4.oo and we had to leave early, but we had nothing on!!! ):
so well, we left lor. nothing to do mah. in the end, i came home like at about 4.30 (:
but that's not bad too. just, weird.

i'm watching goong now, and yushu's gonna be so jealous.
should i lend her? or not? XD
i donno.

okayyy. i'm getting really bored.
blogging is also getting boring.
everything is getting boring.
i never realised that after exams, you'll feel so bored too.
maybe it's becos there's no homework? not studying?
but that can't be the problem! D:
if last time we feel that homework and exams are so stressful, then now we don't have any, we should feel happy!
hmm, did i say i was not happy? i'm just thinking about the boredom everyday.
okay i'm starting to contradict myself again.
and i'm getting really hungry.
what should i eat for dinner? it's not up to me anyway.
my father's buying tonight. i think.

really bored now! :D
so i'm drained.. and i shall stop blogging (:
byebye!

hello!
today we got back results! hurhur.
exams are loooong over, but i haven't got the time to update you see.
haha. no lah i was too busy watching tv and playing Sims 2! :D
Sims 2 rocks. really, believe me.
but i've grown a teeny weeny bit tired of it.
well the long holidays after the exams was sort of refreshing lah.
after those long days of writing compos and summaries and stuff, it was.. relaxing.
haha, now i can't even write properly or even type properly.
maybe because i haven't used the computer for blogging.
only using the mouse to play sims.
and i never touch my books/pens!
doubt anyone would do that. not really likely.
but there are exceptions! (:
qianya's exams just ended today.
and i got back my results today.
was okay lah. i haven't really check with the CA marks yet.
aiyoooh. i got stomachache again.
sorry gotta go. bye! :D

hello!
exams are overrrrr!!!
oh yay. oh whoo. oh wheewheewah!
you know something?
i can't type properly becos i haven't used the computer for 5 years. hmm. sounds dramatic.


blogging sucks.
because the big black box rocks more.
haha. goodbye!
here i come big black box! and foooood!
lalalalalala. :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D